I’ve been thinking a lot about a lot of stuff… mostly that I get really really angry while I am driving, it makes me do stupid stuff and as much as I would like to blame the retarded drivers on the road I will hold that back and say I need to focus on driving defensively amidst all the Offensive drivers.
I have been working way too much, 50 to almost 70 hours a few weeks ago. I will hold my opinion on that because if you know me you know I have an opinion and I’d rather let some one get it from me personally rather than from me via text. I have decided, and have known for a quite a while, that text is a weak sauce means of proper communication. Unless (!) the writer of said text goes to great lengths to fully illustrate and identify the exact needs of their audience, then text is not an ineffective means of communication. I think an awful lot and go off of my previous experience 99.999% of the time so my understanding of what you have just written is first subject to my prejudice and skepticism before I consciously can decide to formulate an opinion on it.
so… where is my rambling going?
I have identified one of my struggles: I want to leave an impression on the World right now. How do I want to do this? Well, I am feeling a draw to create something most likely web based that attracts attention from more than just people I know, family and friends. I would like to be able to put something on the World Wide Web in a way that would attract attention but more importantly possibly enrich and help people.
I mentioned a while back while reading two books about the philosophy of “Want”, I am going to be bringing two boys into this world in the (very) near future that will put me in a position where I need to sacrifice my ‘want’ because they will be in Need of everything. It’s definitely a realization that has struck me recently as I feel them kick and move their mother’s belly, they are there and they are coming here soon.
I need to shift gears attack school and work on my philosophy so that I can not only continue on a path to become a more enlightened improving person, but be able to give something to my Sons that will allow them to navigate life and its inherent struggles.
More to come, hopefully it will never stop.
-Paul